Acceptance

I'm sitting here on pins and needles. Countdown to beach time has come and I can't go anywhere until this one packaged is delivered to my house. I don't even think the owner of what's physically in that package understands what I've done all week to ensure I receive this package today.

Needless to say, as I am waiting, a tiny break through has been in my mind since late last night. Acceptance. It's quite a big word if you don't believe you can achieve it. My goal for today, accept my life for what it is today; honor it, and strive for better tomorrows.

I need to start honoring myself and the work I've been doing. Neglecting myself will not do me any good. Everything will be o.k.

I was watching another, once single NYC girl and last night she made me think. She, had all these questions for herself "how am I going to pay rent?" How will I ever marry?" Who will I ever be worthy of?". Until she accepted herself and really believed in herself, she would never have anything. As soon as she stopped worrying and began accepting- everything fell into place- A great man who loves her, a baby and looking at a bright fabulous marriage.. it made me think... I've got my ducks in a row, I'm striving to be better, truly working on myself- I should start believing a little more...