Constant..

Consistent.  I need to be more consistent.  I know I can be a total hot mess, but I need to find some consistency in a routine.  I think I like being scattered all the time but I think as I'm getting older- I'm effing tired!

Maybe it's that I've been running around like a mad woman for the past three weeks but I'm ready to just get back into my swing of things. 

Also, on another note, I met a NICE guy.  Like really nice guy.  100% NOT what you would expect for me to choose, at all.   I'm keeping him silent for a while, until I figure out whats going on....stay tuned

I'm 27 and 3/4....

I was abruptly woken up this morning to reality.  That I'm 27 and 3/4, living at my parents house and being woken up becasue "my cat" did something again- I digress.

I'm coming off of an amazing three weeks.  I was part of an incredible meeting in Atlanta, then jetted to Houston where I was one of four amazing women working our asses off and back to NYC for an international ballet competition and gala.  In between, I had fun.  My attitude was awesome, fun and I love what I'm doing right now and embracing my singleness. 

I need to remember these moments of embracing my singleness.  How much I impact people lives everyday.  Not to put myself on a pedestal but I'm awesome.  I'm fun, flirty, and laughing hard- prob one of the most important things ever; just to laugh. 

In the past, I've always come off an incredible busy time with some depressing moments and I'm really trying NOT to fall into it.  Yes, there are things that I need to focus on but I'm 27 and 3/4, why can't I still have fun?  I'm working on myself, staying happy, being awesome but why is it that people don't think I'm living in reality?  I'm panicing all the time about being budget consciencous, nervous nelly about work, why don't people see that?

Keep Breathing...

Never say "no" to new jobs- especially if you want to succeed in your position. 

So, as of 6 pm yesterday, the decision was made for me to travel to Atlanta today.  I'll be working with another CEO and then onto Houston by Thursday.  DEEP BREATHES.  I know my shit.  They've asked me because I'm good and I'm capable.

I will remember to be humble

I will remember that I am smart.

I will remember to be kind and thankful

I will remember to be blessed with opportunities

I will rock

I will be amazing and fabulous

I will continue to breathe deeply.

Hello Monday...

Here's to a great week!!! Isn't he so yummy...I'd do him up and down and all over again...

Happy Monday! Cheers!

F- You Friday...

I don't know what anymore.  Maybe it's that weird place and time where I just need to get out.  I need to get out, move on and find my own happiness.  Maybe I just need to get laid- Nope- that only lasts a few moments...I need something else...I want to be happy.

I'm always happy go-lucky, but why has it been so hard lately?  I'm supposed to have a date tonight with one that's been around a while.  I don't want to think about it in a romantic way- I don't know if I feel that way anymore.  He's not what I pictured.  There's no drive, there's not spark, not anymore. 

It's always been said that you have to change your way of thinking to change your mood.  I'm trying, I really am...but this is hard..

Positivity

I have something...it might be around that time of month, but it feels like it's been that kinda couple of months.  I wake up and I'm grumpy.  I'm feeling manic.  Not Charlie Sheen manic, but def not positive.  Where is my positivity?  I have a lot of it down deep, I radiate awesomeness....but it's having trouble shining lately.

Maybe I need to change.  Maybe I'm putting the pressure on myself and realizing that I need something outside of my routine.  Even after my date, which I was pretty happy, bubbly self, I just got more fustrated.  Maybe I did it to myself- I mean I did kinda know who I was going to be dating...

Things to be Positive about today:

The sun is out!
My back is swore (I really did work hard last night at yoga!)
My coffee
Breathing deeply- took a long time to figure out how, and though I get lost in finding it, it's good to know I got it. And if I forget or need to cry, I promise myself to do three deep breathes.

I can do this.  Thinking of the white positivity light bursting from my finger tips, toes, head and my eye balls...

One more thing to be positive about- DAN ABRAMS! He's totally on ABC now and you know what- He"s SINGLE!!!!!!