F- You Friday...

I don't know what anymore.  Maybe it's that weird place and time where I just need to get out.  I need to get out, move on and find my own happiness.  Maybe I just need to get laid- Nope- that only lasts a few moments...I need something else...I want to be happy.

I'm always happy go-lucky, but why has it been so hard lately?  I'm supposed to have a date tonight with one that's been around a while.  I don't want to think about it in a romantic way- I don't know if I feel that way anymore.  He's not what I pictured.  There's no drive, there's not spark, not anymore. 

It's always been said that you have to change your way of thinking to change your mood.  I'm trying, I really am...but this is hard..