If I could be any of Jane Austen's heroines, I'd be Emma. She's amazing- I truly love this character. I love that she is a bit naive, wondrous, creative and yet an incredibly strong female, who if it was her would never marry, ever happy to be at home in Highbury taking care of her family. She does doubt herself- trying to reason with herself regarding her choices of not going to London to see any of the births of her only sisters 5 children. And as she matures, she, like me will make stronger, confident and wiser choices. And let's face it- will come to realize that she does truly love and always has the incredible Mr Knightly.
Today, I promise to find that little piece of Emma in me. Confidence, loyalty, creativity, and strive for greatness. There is a piece of Emma, with proper manners whom will never go below her social standards- well, maybe I shouldn't either...
I say this in regards to my dating history. As of a lately there has been a suitor. Only slightly and if I were Emma, I should just look the other way. He is, you could say like a Mr. Elton. Below my social status- or not necessarily characterized within the pyramid of social ladder but work wise; I have risen above more so then he. He doesn't read, doesn't care for schooling, believes that he knows everything and willing to make a buck off of what I would feel would be cheating myself- especially at 30.
Marry up. Date up- same thing? Emma would never marry below her social class. She has been brought up within a certain way. Sure things do not necessarily work as they do the 18th Century- but HOT DOG! I think there is something to be learned from here. Again, why would I even THINK about dating someone who doesn't have aspirations, dreams, hopes, and shares some ideas that I have been brought up knowing? This one, I can hear all my girlfriends telling me, and seriously I knew this all along, don't sell yourself short- even if I am just dating...
London is calling. I'd like my own Mr. Knightly or even Mr. Darcy. A dreamy accent, a witty comment, biscuits and tea, someone to asking me to "walk with"... hehe
In all seriousness, this feeling of London isn't leaving me. I want to go- be surrounded by something unfamiliar, be wonderful charming, an Emma in a world unknown- just as she left Highbury, I think I can leave Orange county for a bit...
ooooooo!!! i so can't wait for you to run away to london for a while!! you are going to love love love it :) we lived in greenwich which is a bit outside of all the big city stuff but it was so charming and had the best little pub and cute weekend markets. had i been able to get a visa we would have stayed!
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